I think i could understand the feeling now :)

to my NYC other half

Dear S,

It's lovely to hear you're having a wonderful time! I'm so happy for you, this trip seems like an accumulation of what you've been working at for the past four years!

It's hard to believe you didn't pack any warmer clothes, you love fall clothes! hahaha It's wonderful both you and Jman have been keeping us updated on your trip so far! I love reading the reactions of other people when they comment. The people are truly envious!

Have a wonderful time, but remember to take it easy to. You have lots to do once you get back!

M

#@!#%$&*@

Looking for a job is the full-time job I never wanted.

I can only explain that this process is much like running against a brick wall... over, and over, and over, and over again...

It's a difficult time for my recent college graduate peers. It seems all the good jobs are snatched up by the l eeriely similar to the classmate who stole your notes and ideas, while we sit here empty handed with limited options before us. It's panic time for many of us as "summer" has ended and we are hit with the hard realization that, no, we do not have school and NO, we have nothing to sustain us during this tedious job searching time.

I am not like most of my peers. While many, especially the alumnae of DePaul University, have mothers and fathers with successful professional backgrounds and economic security I am way out in the left field, behind the fence, past the scoreboard... in the field of weeds too far to even see from the bleachers.

My parents are immigrants to the U.S. and worked their whole lives telling my sister and I that college would be the key, college means success, college is your only option. Now that the benchmark has been reached, I'm left here thinking "Now what?".

Dear reader, do not be hasty to judge. I am not by any means a lazy or ignorant person. I have known since entering the prose reading contest in junior high that communications is the industry I wanted to be a part of. I have always envisioned my career in communications and worked hard both academically and professionally to obtain the dream. I worked endless jobs (often two at a time) from the time I was 16 until these present times. I had wonderful internship opportunities that in the eyes of any employer would qualify me for a sturdy entry level job.

But then here is where I meet my brick wall. I am no body. I know no one. I am. Just Minna.

I strongly believe that education is the pillar that fosters creativity and individuality. Where before being "my own person" was the goal of my everything, in my career search I am finding that it is now a scrambling game of who knows who. Yes, I've been to networking events and YES, I have sought help from former professors and advisers.

Currently, I hold a wonderful "intern" position at a wonderful organization that I hope to be employed at full time. However, due to THE RECESSION (oh foe i hate) this organization has been faced with a cash flow problem. Some have had their hours cut, certain jobs have not been re-filled and my repetitive requests for a full time position have been left to slide to the wayside.

My stats:
B.A. Communications, June 2009
Cover Letters written June 09 - present: 120 personalized cover letters
Resumes Sent/Jobs applied to June 09 - present: 200


Wall, you almost have me defeated.